lalala~~~~new day new beginning....ahaks..but my past still haunting me..doshite??especially when tomorrow is 1st July..his 19th birthday..i can't forget him..nor can i forgive myself..it was halfway my fault that we lose contact with each other..i should have protected the card he gave before we got separated..i should have!but i didn't..that's why i can't contact him anymore..maybe he has forgotten about me..go on with his life..meet new person..as for me..still stuck in the past..he still the person i love the most..he was my very first bestfren..my very first love..how am i suppose to forget him?i thought that i can..but i definitely can't..he's still in malacca during his holiday..but i myself hardly go back to my grandma's house..well..he live quite near with my grand's village..sigh..feel like crying right now..but i can't..i dun even know why..i'm just hoping that maybe one day..we can meet each other again..i just wanna meet him once more to brush away all those love i have for him so i can love others again..i need to move on..i can't let others as well get trapped in my past n guilt..

talking about guilt...i did 2 of my belove people felt guilty..gomenasai..really..i didn't meant too..i was just..i dunno..i was really sensitive n all..i didn't mean to do so..gomeney~~

aiyark..almost 11..1 more hour for me to settle up my stuffs for ytm..hoho..so much to do..so lil time..n still worrying about the past..past is past..but past made us who we are today..lalala~apo2 jo lah..hoho..

o yeah..going to fraser hill today..back on sunday..lalalala~~jangan ade yang cari sudey..didn't tell anyone though about my plan..other than my parents,besfren n lalala HIM..ekekeke..kalo ade yang cari..nasib kowang lah..ahaks..anyway..

ja neyh..c ya later...


p/s:slept for 13 hours..hohohohohoho..bahagianya ako..muahahahaha..

posted by MatSyuMiya at 10:34 AM