have u ever felt this feeling,where u feel like nobody wants u anymore..the man u love seems to distancing himself from u..ur bro n sis look like they just want u out of the house..ur frens seems so far away from u..it's like walking back n forth n yet..nobody cares about u..noone loves u..noone really wants u un their live anymore..i have no idea why..but lately..i've been feeling this way..having frens like u have none..having siblings like having strangers around u..having bf who just..hahahh..like i have none..no words that shows how much they love me..nothing at all..i'm happy with them though..contented with all i have right now..just that..i can help feeling lonely the whole time..can't help feeling unwanted by anyone..thank God i still have my mum..i wouldn't know what i would do without her..ok fine..i admit..i'm not the greatest child she could have in this world..i'm bad..sangat jahat..hanya Allah SWT je tahu betapa jahatnya syuhada..but sumhow..whenever i feel like noone is loving me,noone cares bout me,the world seems to be sooo against me,i always knew,she's always on my side..always there for me..right now..i know she's needing me..to help her..to discipline my sis..she's not well..what can i do?i can do absolutely nothing at all..she never said that she wants me to be with her always..it's just that..the feeling of her needing me with her is so strong..tiba2 syuhada sangat sensitif..ahaha..sangat tak seronok dihostel whenever i have this feeling..but then again..when i'm at home..tak sabar na balik hostel..because why?my sisters la..treating me like i'm some sort of stranger who is there to steal away mum's love..i admit la..i'm very close to my mum..sangat suke bermanja with mak..but i'm not gonna have my mum alone..aiyark..our mum is not just for me alone..adeyh tol..but what amazes me is..they consider their fren as their siblings..i mean..they's closer to their fren who call my mum 'mak' then me..own flesh n blood..hohoho..sungguh sedih diri ini bila selalu fikir2 kan pasal ni..lalalala~~i dunno if i will survive this whole thing..i dunno how long i can take it anymore..syuhada tak kuat sangat pun..ahahaha..

i still remember oyen telling me..i can't runaway everytime i have this feel i have right now..i have to face it..face it no matter how hard it is for me..i dunno oyen..i dunno if i can face it alone..i'm just hoping sumhow i will..lalalala~~wuteva..

aiyark..penat la..baru balik dari umah..ahaks..na basuh baju..na angkat baju dari jemuran..na jemur baju lain..na..na..na tido..lalalalal~~

o yeah..sangat kecewa la when porto lost to german..uwaaa!!~~menci cristiano!!menci menci menci!!hahahah..i dunno bout tonite..if france win..i would be happy as it's the last game for zidane..but if they lose,i would still be happy coz totti win..ahahaha..sape eks patut disokong..hmm..fikir2..lalala..

till then..ja neyh..~~

posted by MatSyuMiya at 3:53 PM