hmm..lately syuhada semakin kejam n takde perasaan..why?i dunno..it's just that..i have this feeling that there's no use for me to have any feeling about things around me when no one whom i really love is concern bout how i feel.there'r no use for me actually to feel anything anymore..i can feel the love they have for me sumtimes..but lately..hmm..especially sumone whom i love so damn much..hmm..he's like distancing himself from me..i know that the love is still there..it's just that..we're getting further from one another..hmmm...

oh yeah..sumone start his practical today..his gonna be even more hmm busier after this i guess..less time for me..haih..gotta understand the situation..huuu..but i'm lonely without u dear..huhuhu..sebab tu syuhada semakin tak berperasaan..n ade budak siap ckp syuhada semakin kijam (i did follow ur ejaan..ehehe)..mmg kot..adeyh..but oyen said i'm hmm sangat baik..ehehe..thanks oyen..seriously speaking..i'm spending more n more time with oyen nowadays..lame2 jadi adik angkat ako la ko ye oyen cayang.ehehe..sangat suka panggil oyen sayang or cayang..dunno why also.ahahaha..

takpelah..as long as i have sumone whom i can really express my anger,sadness,happiness together no matter at what time of the day,i'm contented with my life =)i mean..not many people can endure syuhada's kacauan..muahaha..sebab tu saya sayang kamu! =) ok2..that's during ym time actually..other than that..mostly i still have my zaza n ika..they're like my sisters already..nanti kalo free kite jalan same2 eks.n skodeng that sabah guy together gether..muehehehe..sungguh jahat..hey..though i dun have much feeling right now bout things around me..i stil skodeng peeps kay..ahahaha..skodeng doesn't need any feeling..n anyway..dun think bad when the word skodeng arouse..just hmm menengok je..when that sabah guy is totally in front of us..kalo tak..no skodeng..ehehe..

ok2..enuf merepek..hmm..gotta prepare for meeting at 9..where in malacca is nice to be at eks..dunno la..too many nice places in malacca..n yet..me so blank..biasek la..budak melaka murtad..jalan pi MP pun leh sesat..m0wakakakaka..but the beaches are damn nice..tanjung bidara is cool..but i prefer pengkalan balak..the chalet's mak cik is a really nice woman..quite miss her actually..i dunno when i'm gonna be able to meet her again..soon enuf i hope!chalet pun mesti da berubah wajah..a few years gone by..so many things has change..as much as the chalet had change..me myself had changed even more..hmm..thinking too much again..sigh..

posted by MatSyuMiya at 8:25 PM