lately have been very busy or lazy more likely to update this blog..it's just that..nothing really interesting happening to my life..hmm..tatau la..sejak dua tiga hari ni..i'm always feeling sad..that's one of the reason why i'm so bersemangat to go to class..coz in class,i would be either bored n sleepy,or happy n laughing all the way..no feeling sad..no feeling lonely and all..i shouldn't feel this way..i know that for sure..there's no reason for me to feel this way..i have great parents,great besfrens like zaza,ika n oyen who loves me so much dearly,i have a good relationship with my bf..i have great classmates like sofi,mama n ekin..i have great roomate,great scc family,great everything..i have everything essentials to make me happy..but at then end of the day..i have this sorrow in my heart..sumting hidden..sumting noone knows but those who are really2 close to me..sumone who would stay awake until 3 am just to listen to wuteva distafying me n trying the hardest to make me as happy as i should be..but deep down..no matter how happy i may look..there's this sadness i can't control..sadness i can't repel..n i dun even know why..hahaha..

n anyway..have u ever feel u'r missing sumone so much..sumone who used to backstabbed u..hahaha..stupid isn't it to miss that kind of person?u've hurt so much,so many times in a row,break off from that,from everything that involves with that..n now..u'r missing that very person..missing n loving..hahaha..really stupid..n that's how i feel..i feel so stupid..hahahahahahah...

n right now..i have this confuse feeling..what am i feeling?is it love?or just frenship kinda love..muahaha..confuse2..i hate it when i' confuse..coz when i'm feeling confuse,i would start getting dizzy..then..i would just collapse n sleep..i had slept for 13 hours in a row once..due to my confusion..muahahahahah...

need to start studying already..it's already week 5..ngaaa..a few more weeks before finals..huuu..scary thoughts..huhu..

so many things to do..n i think n feel that i have so lil time to do it..will God give me a chance to do all of it?i hope i'll be given that chance..i'm praying for it..

sadness fly away from me..

posted by MatSyuMiya at 8:58 PM