assalamualaikum..

tibe2 terfikir pasal cinta..ahaks..tatau la..semalam berbual dengan shasha..we didn't really talked about love though..more like err..i dunno..jem time tu..ngantuk2 sume..

actually..i never really give any deep thought about love..i just think about it for like 5 or 10 minutes then brush it away from my mind..it sumtimes hurts just to think about it..especially when the past just suddenly come rushing *zzuusss* into my mind..it hurts so much that i actually cried in my heart..*cover macho beb.:P*

anyway..have i really fall in love?naahhh..i dun think so..love is just too deep for me i guess..i thought the one i had before was love..the one i had when i was with a.j was love..actually it wasn't..it was just fren-kinda-love.i was confused.muahahaha..*oh yeah..love = lovey dovey gf bf.ahaks*

when my ex left me..i felt a lost in my heart..like there's a big bunghole in my heart.slowly sumone filling it up with his caring attitude n all..then i realise..it was wrong..everything was wrong.it should never had happened.i hate everything about him.why did i allowed him to be in my heart?it's like ur teeths..ade lubang,and instead of taruk benda yang konon2 tampak gigi tu,i put icecream+junkie food inside..it just made the teeth worse.so here am i again..with my hollow heart.heh~

oh yea..sha told me to find a bf.ahaks sha..senang je ko ckp..i'm not ready for that just yet.i wanna find sumone who's eyes can make me feel like i'm in heaven..who's voice can lift a 1000tonnes of burden of my shoulder..who's attitude can make me feel like i'm not invisible to him.heh..ade ke manusia camtu?ahaks~

so for the meantime..relax dulu yer sha..i'll have one when i'm really ready n i'll tell u for sure ah..eheh..

lately i haven't been getting enuf sleep + rest.my back is aching..it's getting worse everyday.nak kate tak minum susu,i've resume my tradition of minum susu everyday hari2..but it's still aching..sumtimes it does affect my neck.i can't even turn my head!adeh..tatau la kenapa..hopefully i'm not experiencing osteoporosis.*betul ke eja?layan je la..*too young to have that..but my fren have this sakit sendi tu..ntah ape kenamenye..n he's only 18.aahhhh..world nowadays..

maybe i'll have enuf sleep+rest after finishing all my work + exams..that's like..errr..another 1month++heh..lepas final je ade 3 weeks for me to adjust my spine ni..hahahah...

hah lagi satu..semalam..sumone called me..the conversation was sumting like this..
epoi:alo ni epoi..ni sape ek?
syu:erkk..apekah..aku patutnye tanye ko soklan tu..ni mano lak dpt number neh?
epoi:semalam awak call saya maa...
syu:(aku dah marah)ek elehs..haku top up ari ni..apehal lak laaa semalam aku misscall ko?ngeee~
epoi:eh iyer..jangan2 kawan awak yang call tak..
syu:kalo kawan aku call jadah ko call number ni..sengal tol..

conclusion.LAME PICK UP LINE.VERY VERY VERY LAME.guys out there who's still using this stupid + lame pick up line..stop it la guys..it just make u look like a fool..heh!~

oh yer..lately ade perasaan confuse skit2..tatau la..cuba melupakan seseorang..tapi makin cuba dilupakan..makin die dekat.err..i mean in my mind..heh~tak larat dah nak ingat tu sume..

posted by MatSyuMiya at 2:40 PM