assalamualaikum..

erm..cam ade sedikit kemalasan nak update..mungkin suatu hari nanti akan update semula.esok mungkin?lusa mungkin?lately mood had been really bad..i've been having this attitude of nak marah2 orang..i saw 2 girls with status ym cam kutuk2 KKB..and i smashed them back with my status..i mean..i'm not one of the committee..they are..but why am i feeling so angry?i'm becoming a freak..demmit!and one guy suddenly ym-ed me asking me to add his new account of ym..a new id..what i said to him was,

saya rasa kite neh tak pernah berbual..ni la skali..and kalau saya add awak kat list dengan id baru..awak rasa cam ade beza ke?cam bazir lak..

heh..melampau..i know..it was rude..but i was just having this constant super duper bad mood..gome-neh..gome-neh..kadang2 when anyone buzz pun rasa nak campak je laptop ni kat kepala orang tu..melampau bukan?why am i feeling this way?erm..i think i know but i'm not ready just yet to talk about it...i'm just hoping sumhow God will find His way to clear all this and make my days brighter..cuaca sangat mendung sekarang..hujan?maybe not..entah..this is how life feels right now..i wanna cry..i'm being not me..not who i used to be..i'm becoming an angry and depressed person..when i'm in front of the computer of course..once outside in real life..i'm just me..maybe i'm a bit harsh to a person..gosh..i shouldnt be hating that person but deep down..i do...demmit!

erm..lucky today i went out with dyan ayed and soul..at least i had a good laugh with them..many2..what did we talked about anyway?i dunno..i only knew i had fun with them..erm..i'm still worried about kak farah..i hope she'd be fine..i hope it's erm nothing..erm..if only KUITTHO is like..erm..like UTeM..at least we can be near...erm...

we are rowing the boat of fate.the waves keeps on coming and we cant escape but if we ever get lost in our way,the waves would guide us through our way...
-riefu-

i must live by these words..all these happens for a reason to show me where my life will lead...i hope everything would be fine..i hope..and i'll keep my hope..

posted by MatSyuMiya at 6:56 PM